A little bit of courage

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Going to college and getting my degree has been a dream of mine for as long as I can remember.
Of course, in the earlier years it was more encouragement from my parents to go, but as I got into high school it became MY dream.

While I was confident in my decision to go, I'm not sure I was prepared for the amount of courage it was going to take me.
Emotional courage - many tearful nights
Physical courage - sacrificing sleep, not so good for this 8-hour a night beauty sleeper
and even more scary,
Financial courage
I've learned to save and spend wisely and I believe spending my savings on education is a wise way to provide a prosperous future for my family.
When Nic and I got married I'll admit, I was lacking even more in the financial courage department.
But Nic is the level-headed calm one in this relationship.
He always knows exactly what to say to reassure me that things are always going to work out.

Two weeks ago I sent in a check to pay the balance of my spring semester.
I periodically would check back over the next week to see if it had arrived but when it was never entered I began to worry. Since this last weekend I've pulled it up first thing every morning followed by multiple times throughout the day and still., every time I found my remaining balance showing.

Here it goes, panic time.
Did my check get lost in the mail?
Maybe something is wrong with it and they are sending it back?
What if they drop my from classes, THEN what am I going to do.

All the while mister calm is telling me, "Meagan, stop worrying so much. It WILL get there."
Then all I wanted to do was yell back at him, "But it is not like we have thousands of dollars laying around that we can willingly fork over to these people in the event that something went wrong. We SAVE for these occasions ya know! (as if he didn't already know that). Do they have ANY idea how much people put on the line to get a degree, DO THEY? They are just money hoarders out to get us for all we are worth."

Woah, clearly it got to me.

This morning rolled around and I was feeling a new level of confidence.
I just new it HAD to be today.
After 1 minute of pure torcher going through the log-in process, there it was.
The news I had been waiting two weeks for.
Only not how I was expecting it to be.
Instead, I received a short message that went something like this:
Dear Meagan,
You have been awarded a one-time scholarship totaling the amount of $1,103.00.
I took a double-take just to be sure.
The scholarship was in the amount of EXACTLY what I owed.

My heart is FULL today and while I plan to give these generous people a proper thank you by mail, I want to thank them from the bottom of my heart here, because this is the place I feel the most like myself.
For me it was a miracle and one that I will never forget.

Having courage and faith that everything will work out is what makes dreams come true.
It has been what is making MY dream come true.
2012, you sure are good to me so far.

P.S. I STILL haven't heard hide nor hare about our actual check but do you think I care? Nope. Staying calm, worry free, not a care in the world. Because that is how I roll.
Okay, I'm going to go call them now :)

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