There are things that I don't love about myself.
Things that I know I could work on, do better, change.
Wishing time away is one of these things.
On Mondays I find myself wishing away the week for another weekend,
THEN i could spend more time with Nic.
While in class I find myself staring at the clock counting down the minutes until it is time to leave,
THEN I could have more time to study.
I find myself counting down the semesters, classes, and days until I graduate with my degree,
THEN I can do what I love most and teach.
The moment I met Nic I wished we were dating,
THEN I could get to know this man who made my heart skip a beat every time we were in the same room.
After dating for a while I wished that Nic and I were engaged,
THEN I would know that I couldn't lose him.
After we got engaged I counted down the days wishing we were married sooner,
THEN I could spend the rest of my life with the man I loved.
See what I mean....
I was complaining to my dad yesterday about yet another busy week ahead of me and he said: "You are so young and have so much ahead of you. Enjoy the journey!" ... and it really hit home for me.
Life IS a journey.
THESE ARE the moments.
They only happen once and in an instant, they are gone.
I will live EVERY moment and take it all in because,
I live a beautiful life.
Ah Meagan, I think you are a very normal human being. Wishing away time I think is similar to thinking the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence. We all fall into the things would be better if mode and it takes something to remind us that what we have is pretty awesome too! Don't be discouraged, remember each moment you learn something about you or the world, even in wishing away time moments. You can learn what it is you value most.
ReplyDeleteYou always say exactly what I need to hear. Thanks Mady, you are the BEST!
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